Not A Dark And Stormy night
I find myself waking up in a body that has decided, without consulting me, to not work very well today. Unfolding myself like a cheap deck chair just to get out of bed. Hearing myself walk across the floor as the joints in my body crackle and pop in rebellion. Bending over to pick up the morning newspaper and looking around for anything else down there that can help make the trip worthwhile.
I truly hate painkillers of all kinds. I take enough pills as it is. When I feel the pain, like today, at least I know that I’m alive – defying the odds, defying the calendar, defying the easiness of numbness.
When it is like this I know that I tend to close the doors around me and stay inside myself. I’m trying my best to not do that. It is not fair to those I love.
I’m in here, but I just can’t come out and play.
I do wish I knew how to better explain this all. I understand it from my point of view, but I find it hard to express in words.
If all of this sounds like I’m being whiny you have my permission to slap me around. I don’t like it in others and I will not tolerate it in myself.
The sun has come out and is shining brightly – I hope it can stay there for a few hours and help to dry things out.
Most days this blog is lighthearted and, to be honest, downright silly. Some people use the word “stupid,” and I have no problem with that.
I hope that this blog makes you laugh, regard the world with a grin, and look around at it and realize that we all help to make it what it is.
So, on those days when I’m not feeling well I beg your forgiveness and assure you that this blog will soon return to its nonsensical ways.
Until then, watch a funny movie, pet your cat, eat something “they” say you shouldn’t, kiss your favorite person, watch a ballgame, teach your kids to juggle, do an interpretive dance to the Magna Carta, wave to your neighbor, be thankful and quietly smile until everyone around you wonders what’s up.